#30 - Doubts & being insecure - but still keep writing

Irene's choice of music this week

This time I feature a track from


  Gabriel & Dresden called Waiting for Winter 

(the title is a homage to me waiting for winter,

because then  my 52 stories will be done)


Start listening and enjoy best as always with

(but not too loud please) 🎧



1 Year - 1 Story every week - 52 Stories

Writing a story every week for 52 weeks is a commitment. A commitment which I took on me when I come up with the idea about writing a blog. I knew it wouldn't be easy to write a new story every week, but I started writing 30 weeks ago anyway.


Hopes are big when you start to write a blog. You think you will end up being a new "superstar" and that you conquer the world overnight. 

But it's not that simple.


 Well, here I am, open and honest and I tell you that sometimes I doubt myself and sometimes I'm insecure, 

if I'm able to keep up with writing a story every week. 


Sometimes I ask myself questions like: 

Maybe the time is not right yet?

Maybe my stories are not good enough?

Maybe my marketing is not good enough

and maybe I should start putting money into social media ads to be able to reach more people?


Of course I would love to get more readers, more feedback and generally more engagement. Which blogger wouldn't want that? 


After all those questions I have some wishes, too - of course :-)  


I wish I would have a big network of bloggers where we could talk about those questions and topics.


And I wish more of the people I know well would read my blog and give me a honest feedback - and support me this way. I understand that everybody is busy all the time. But it still would be great if people would share per example my blog posts, like more my posts on social media or even just leave a comment below my weekly blog posts. 

Then - it would be easier to reach more people - that's for sure.


Building an audience from scratch is another challenge. 


But never mind my doubts and me being sometimes insecure. I bet with you, that many others who have chosen to walk a different way then the rest of their friends or family had doubts and were insecure about it, specially in the first year.


So why do I keep writing?


I keep writing because I (still) believe in myself, in my dreams and in my journey.

I actually want to finish those 52 stories, week after week and coming up with new ideas and new stories and hopefully after that I come up with another idea to keep working on my blog.

Chancing topic - chancing story

The tragedy of the Vajont Dam

Last Sunday I visited the Vajont Dam in between Trento and Udine which let me to a story from the past. A big tragedy happened in 1963 where around 2.000 people were killed.

The dam got completed 1959 and it's one of the tallest dams in the world with its 262 metres. 


The tragedy could have been prevented because there were warning signs and reports from the geological instability of the mountain Toc (a mountain right next to the lake) - but the construction company and the government decided to not listen to the journalists which reported those warnings. 

There were little landslides and earthquakes before the big tragedy happened. The construction company tried to control the landslides by lowering the water of the dam - but they didn't succeed.


The day came where the big tragedy happened: 9th October 1963. At 10.39 pm a massive landslide of rock, forest and earth fell into the dam lake. The water in the dam lake got build up to a 250-metre wave. The villages around the dam got destroyed and around 2.000 people were killed. 

But one village survived: Casso! 

Casso is located so high up that the wave couldn't reach the village.

After visiting Casso it was time to go down to the Vajont Dam where the tragedy happened. Taking a guided tour was necessary to walk along the very tall dam wall - which even let me shake my knees (and I'm usually not altitude sick).

Walking past all the names of the children that died during the catastrophe left goosebumps on my skin and reminded me how precious life is.

The dam isn't anymore in use and the landslide full of forest, earth and rock lays now silent where there was the dam lake. Trees grew over the time over the moved land and the "dam lake"-scenery will always be a reminder of the tragedy.  

If you are ever in this area of Italy and this story interests you more, you should definitely visit the Vajont Dam. It is an incredible story, an incredible scenery and an incredible construction of the dam wall. Short said: It's worthwhile a visit!

I wish you all a great summer Sunday.

Take care!

Hopefully till next Sunday





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